Mood: Calm, but a little emotional
Difficulty level: HARD!
Energy: Low-Moderate
Stomach: A-OK! Woohoo!
Overall: It was an easy day for Whole30, but a hard evening and I will elaborate down below :)
So I am a day late in posting. I didn't have the energy to write last night, and I had some mixed emotions on how I felt in result to "surviving" my Whole30 night.
The day was easy; I had a prepared, Whole30 compliant lunchbox full of breakfast, lunch and soda water for the work day.
Breakfast: Egg Bake (picture/recipe in previous post) and black coffee
Lunch: Roasted potatoes with ground sirloin w/ peppers and onions (DELISH recipe in day 2 post) plus avocado on top and a banana
Snack: LaraBar - Coconut Cream pie
Dinner:
The night was hard, and emotional. I attended an awesome Graduation dinner and ceremonial event for young boys of The Write Field 4.0, a mentoring program that lasts the duration of the school year. My amazing boyfriend is a mentor, and I was his guest. There was a cash bar and a buffet with salad (honey mustard on romaine, or raspberry vinaigrette over mixed greens, rice pilaf, roasted potatoes, mango meatballs, breaded chicken with marinara, and cake).
I was so torn when I sat down. I thought, why am I even doing this, Whole30? Why can't I just eat like a normal person, and not worry about a stringent meal program of any kind? Why have I, so many times in my life, felt as though I had to restrict things in order to be "good". More importantly, why have I had to restrict things in order to not allow FOOD to make me feel GUILTY? I seriously contemplated giving in and drowning my sorrows in a glass (or 3) of wine.
I got salad (best choice was mixed greens with vinaigrette, although I am sure that was not Whole30 compliant), a few potatoes (which looked like they just had olive oil on them…), 2 mango meatballs I didn't plan to eat (but knew my boo would, and he did) and a piece of chicken in which I scraped the breading off of - I had 1 bite of DRY chicken and pushed it aside. I did NOT get a glass of wine :)
I did it. I stayed compliant (or as compliant as I could… I am sure the tiny bit of vinaigrette I ate won't kill me or my Whole30 on day 3…
I realized… it was never the Whole30 program that was making me feel guilty or controlled. It is NOT food, it is ME, and it is my LOUSY RELATIONSHIP with food (and wine).
Food should be FUEL. Wine should be a treat. Neither should be a coping mechanism, and neither should make me feel pressured, guilty or anxious.
Keep Calm and Whole30 on…
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